mate there`s only one way to move forward and thats to leave the past buried no good looking back at it, bury it and forget it, it may seem hersh, but its what im doing at the mo, cant move forward by dwelling on the past enjoy your youth mate you wont have another one live it , love it , forget it, but do it mate
and good luck to you
oh and one last thing mate if others dont like it there`s a word on this forum that gets used so just tell them FIFO