this is bad

[mk3cokebottle]

i think that im probably dealing with the most nasty thing that has hit me for a long time and im proper in a low with noone to look to for answers and nowhere to hide and make it all go away ..... i cant even think about the pain that my mates family are feeling at the moment it just seems im stuck in a dark hole and cant get out i havent slept a wink and just keep welling up whenever i look on Retards Club at a smile that i will never see again which was a common site 48hrs ago or when i chat to his mum etc ..... i know that theres no way im ever gonna forget but by fook is it hard to try and live with aswell im just hoping with a bit of time it will make things easier .

 

dont reply if you dont want to i just needed to chat shit as my missus is as bad as me cos jay was working for her as a chef for the last 4 yrs so i cant really chat with her as she just crys like me

 

thanks fa reading i feel a little better now i have spoken what i have to speak if that makes sense

[Fishtailparka]

I know your pain all too well mate.

All I can really say is that time is a great healer. Sounds crap, but it is true i assure you.

Lean on your mates a bit, they are in the same boat.

[BIG G]

Talk to someone mate dont bottle it up as one day it all comes to the surface .....

[Smudger105e]

You have got to grieve, don't bottle it up, if you wanna cry, then cry, no-one will criticise you for that. I don't do grieving well myself (couldn't take the cat to the vets when I ran her over coz I kept crying!).

 

Dunno what to say mate, as nothing I write will make your situation any better, but as has been said, time is a healer, but it will take a long long time probably

 

If it's any help, all your OSF mates are here for you...

[mk1super]

Mate were all here for you, i think at somepoint we will all lose a very close friend, and its crap, my mate was killed in a bike smash sometime ago now and it still gets to me now, just not as raw as it was if that makes any sense, as said as time passes it heals bit by bit, you never forget em and never will.

[Badgerman85]

mate im always just down the road if u fancy popping down for a

[andy a]

Both my best buddies and housemates got killed within 6 weeks of each other in 95, both had young kids, it hurt like hell at the time and it still does now when I get to thinking about it but it does get better as the years roll on...

 

Whatever you do dont bottle it up, I did for years, went out, got sh1tefaced all the time to forget but it does catch up with you in the end, best to get it out...

 

I had one of my mates kids knock on my front door a few weeks back, wanting to know what her dad was like as she was 2 when he died and she didn't remember him, she's 16 now and has only heard her mums side of the story (her mum and dad were seperated when he died), that hit me bad for a few days after, but I hope I put a nice image of him in her mind for her...

[FredTransit]

All I can say is I am sorry for your loss, but it will get better. You have to accept you will go through this, just go with it. You do what you feel you want to do to deal with it, and we are here.....

[Durham Fiesta]

things will improve over time , my mate commited suicide last year and that hit me hard , even now when see cars the same as he had and when working on my car there are certain parts he helped me to do it does still affect me . Its never going to be a thing you forget , but you will come to terms with it . Don't bottle things up or turn to drink etc to make you feel better as its only a temporary measure . You need to grieve in your own way and time . Take it easy mate